Landon Porter

Its April… and my annual hibernation is all but over.  Thank god, this year I didn’t get as much introspection or rest as I need so, much like not getting a good nights sleep, it’s time to just get out of bed and get on with it.  There are many great things that have occurred in the past 6 months such as my job is kicking ass and I have started a couple projects that mean a lot to me like building my cache of camping gear, mentally figuring out my jeep build and day dreaming of all the cool shit I used to think about like this fucking monster…

… and that is a 1967 M715 Kaiser Jeep, on steroids – lots of steroids!

And there are some things that have not received as much attention as I would like such as my physical health and my spiritual clarity.  So, water (and lots of it) and some unmentionables while in the woods and I will be “right as rain”.

I have a pile of mental crap to wade through still kinda like the morning fog when you tossed and turned all night long.  It will take a little longer to fully wake up but I will get there and end up having a great day (season) and at the end of the day (season) I will crash and get lots of rest (3 week vacation in a cabin with no phones or computers).  God that sounds good, I haven’t even written in a journal this year!  Or stared at the night sky!  Fuck!  Oh well, it all has its purpose right?  And I call it contrast.  and once I fully recognize that and internalize it I will rearrange my perspective and find my feet fully on the path I am creating instead of feeling tossed and thrown around by the waves of life.

After all, that really is the goal, maintaining a “constant level of presence”.

Have a good night, blessed be.

If by-polar is going from one extreme to the other what is it called when you occupy both ends equally at the same time?

I am… so many things and they are all opposite of each other, I wrote a post about it months ago and don’t really feel like finding it for the link. I will however share a couple that come to mind.

I am an introverted extrovert. I love this little space where I can unload my head and yet I hesitate to post the link on Facebook or Twitter, its not that I dont know why I am like that or even that I am afraid of certain people I know asking me why this or why that… its that I don’t want to be bothered with the un-understanding of why I feel the way I do.

I am all about my family yet when I get home from work I prefer to have solitude.

I love my life and want it to be completely different at the same time. I dont even feel like being totally clear about this and I want to get it out… doesn’t make sense.

Despite the above I am happy – and melancholy at the same time.

The Ebb and Flow of life and my life cycles should be apparent to me be now and I should see them coming.  Actually I do, like most everyone I know I get going in one direction and put projects I have been working on, on the back burner.  For the last 18 months I have been hell bent on building blogs – tweaking, writing building and networking… the last 3-4 months I seem to have fallen off the face of the earth to many of you.

I have been covering new ground, looking into new projects and dusting off some I haven’t played with in months or years.  I have also been simplifying my life in some areas and complicating other areas.

Though, whether I am present in my writing or not I am always playing with consciousness to suit my needs, wants and desires.

A couple things that have had my main attention lately are my kids, dogs and cars/trailer.  I spent 2 weekends rearranging the garage and cleaning up the back yard, course that was when it was 70-80 degrees out.  Now its back to snowing….

I have a couple websites I need to build for a friend of mine… should be an interesting challenge.  I was asked to build a couple of main sites for the travel industry and reluctantly said I would, this may be one of those blessings in disguise though as I have had some rather intriguing ideas come to mind during the “thought process” of what I need to do.  Kinda vague I know, I have had a couple ideas about this that may generate a second and perhaps a third.  I will keep you posted – will be over the next 3-6 months if all goes as I think it will.

Anyways, thanks for your patience and hello again. This is the beginning of another “flow” in the area of sharing my daily thoughts.  Hope you enjoy.  If you are new here feel free to look around and you may want to start with “about me”.