Landon Porter

Need I say more? I shall return.

and why I stopped. I have a very close friend and relative who has periods of non sanity, that person made a very nasty comment about what I post here… so I stopped.

Through the lens we perceive. I have changed my glasses.

Birthday!!!

Yay, my hibernation is coming… The future holds promise for me and all I need to manifest it is psychological hibernation. Winter time, the first quarter of my personal new year. The planning period, daily life is on auto pilot, few things to do outside of the winter festivities.

The time when I revisit the canvass and wipe it clean, get out fresh new paints and rewrite my life. The near future, 2-4 more under the thumb, just enough to rebuild a platform to stand firmly on, structure new ideas and formulas to refill my coffers.

I have never done anything illegal, just bad choices, misdealing’s with the wrong people. Life sucks, get a helmet.

I had a friend once, his name was seth, he was like a brother… only he wasn’t.

I had a girl once, she was like my wife… only she wasn’t.

I had a man once, he was like a father… only he wasn’t.

I had a woman once, she was like a mother… only part of the time.

I had a guide once, he was like the unnameable… he is still with me.

I shall have what I shall have, you can take my time but you may not keep it.

Its funny, my attention span allows me to spends hours at night whist I should be sleeping breaking code and making changes to my theme… though I cant find the time to write???

Part of the problem is I am constrained in what I write here… due to a watcher. So the many things I like to write about may be questioned even though writing about something and doing it are two very different things…

This “under the thumb thing is for the birds”.

However, this does not mean I can not plan for when the only one looking over my shoulder is the twins, you know, the one with wings and a halo and the other with a tale.

Biding my time, doing my part, paying for my miss deeds. My life is a trip. I always get what I want, if that means I must wait a bit longer so be it, yes, so mote it be.

The trick is to do so in a way that keeps me from becoming bitter… and thats tough at times.

need an example? I will take home almost $20,000.00 in November, yet keep nothing more than whats absolutely necessary to feed my kids, put enough gas in my car to hear it sputter the day before I get paid next… Im not complaining. I have legitimately built and lost a fortune, and I shall do it again.

I have made mistakes in my past, I bit off way more than I could chew once, couldn’t put the back end together for lack of experience and the one with horns and a tail made sure I had not a drop left… if your gonna crash go big.

Any way, I have more of somethings than most realize and less of others than be explained. I will do what I must and when this task is complete I will build another fortune and this time I will be able to keep it.